Update

Ha! I bet you thought once my one week trial of being vegan ended that I would just quit this blog! No Siree! After that trying week, I saw things more clearly. I wish that I could post that I've lost a crapload of weight since then, but I really haven't. Well, not really. I did lose 10 pounds, though. However, since it is only two days after Easter feasting and also my dad's birthday which means more feasting, I'm not taking any pictures because I'm sure a little bit of that is back on. Maybe next week once eating has been back to normal for awhile.  Anyway, losing those 10 pounds was accomplished the good old fashioned way: being sure to eat more fruits and veggies and less processed junk (notice I say less and not no...I'm working on that...), being sure to drink lots of water--unbelievable how much of a difference that makes, and exercise. 

I go through love/hate periods with exercise. More on that in a different post.

 Fortunately, at the beginning of March we had some unseasonably warm weather. Unfortunately, that meant that I had to confront the issue that NONE of my summer clothes fit me. You see, all of my summer clothes are size 12, Medium and Large, with just a couple size XL shirts I kept from about 2007 when I was losing weight for the first time (soooo that means beat up and not stylish AT. ALL.) Obviously last summer I didn't buy any new "normal" clothes because I was strutting my stuff in (super cool) maternity clothes.  So even if my stuff did fit me, I probably wouldn't want to wear most of it because it is old and has seen better days. This is how I initially tried to make myself feel better. Didn't work.  Then I did the unthinkable. The thing I swore I wasn't going to do.  I went through all of my clothes.  I put away the things that don't fit but I will want to wear again when the time is right.  I gave away-- and even threw away in some gross cases--the stuff that I don't want to wear again.  Now I have a very sparse closet.  Weather is back to normal, so it's not a daily confrontation anymore, but that is only temorary. Eventually it will be warm again and it will stay for awhile. That's when I'll end up being in trouble if I don't stick with this...

So, during that unseasonably warm time I was WAY more active. Little guy and I went for a walk every single day. Of course, then I remembered that since he was born in July and we had the mildest fall and winter ever, I should have been doing that a long time ago. And that just  led to the self-hating that has become so prevelant in my life lately.  Moving on, I found my old dry erase board from my dorm-dwelling days and used it to make a visual plan that sits within eyesight of my elliptical.  It's really not complicated, just an "I will go on this elliptical every single day" kind of thing. It's amazing how much of a difference that actually makes.