Onward

Last week was really hard.  I did actually lose 4 pounds. However, that way of eating was extremely difficult.  There are many reasons for it being difficult.  It was difficult for us financially because buying extreme amounts of organic produce as well as things like cashews, walnuts, and pomegranite juice is majorly expensive. It was difficult for me because it was an insanely huge amount of food to eat, yet everything tasted the same. It was difficult to do as the mother of an infant because...well, it took a long time to make most things and produced a ton of dishes. Finally, it was difficult for both Ray and I because the cravings and the insane headaches made me really really moody.  So, later last week...probably about Thursday, I decided to reevaluate and see what it was that was truly making me miserable.  I also decided to track what I was eating in Weight Watchers just to see what it would come out to from a points perspective (since I have so much experience with that...) I was surprised.  I honestly did think that eating mostly vegetables would be basically no points, but surprisingly enough it did actually stack up.  Then I thought about how things would compare if I added some lean meat occassionally. So, I decided to modify the plan a little bit.  There were things that I liked.  I liked eating more fruits and vegetables.  It is something that I used to do, but I had fallen far far away from it and this was an extreme reminder.  It also reminded me about the importance of staying well hydrate and it reminded me about balance and moderation, which is kind of strange because I felt like it was not at all balanced and portions were insanely huge.  So, bottom line is no more Eat to Live for me.  At least not really.  I think it was something that was necessary for me to experience.  It was exactly the "rude awakening" that I needed. It was extreme, and by trying to figure out how to moderate it, I figured out that the way I lost weight in the first place is the weigh (hahaha) to go.  It works out the best for me. I don't feel deprived, and I still see results.  After fully reviewing and reevaluating Weight Watchers, I see that it can still work for me if I actually try, which I need to admit I had not really been doing since I rejoined post-baby.  I did learn some things from Eat to Live, and there are some things that I will be taking with me.  One big one is limiting dairy.  I discovered that I feel sooooo much better when I drink soy milk, don't eat a lot of cheese, and just generally limit my dairy intake.  I don't know how to describe it, but I feel lighter and it's much better from a digestive staindpoint. Enough of that. I also am taking with me the importance of nutrient density, eating enough greens, a new way to make smoothies without yogurt or at least without so much yogurt, eating a salad with lunch and dinner, fruit at breakfast...and some cool vegan recipes for Meatless Mondays.  Sooooo much happier.